I debated about writing this one.... but there's certain things that you'd rather write about than talk about.I went to Dr. Hassel's viewing last night and woke up thinking of Jennifer Hassel. I went there to comfort her because I knew how much Mark loved Jennifer and how much Jennifer loved him.... and she ended up comforting me. I'm in the wedding industry. I love the feeling of love. I love that people look into each other's eyes and fall in love. I love that one look at a bride from her groom and she melts. I love dating and the anticipation that you'll spend the rest of your life with the one you love. ... all these things that I love, Jennifer and Dr. Hassel loved too. I knew I was in for tears and hurt. There was a montage of Dr. Hassel's life that easily brought me to tears. After speaking with Jennifer and looking into the faces of their children I had to sit and compose myself before leaving the sanctuary, knowing that the foyer was full of people waiting to come in. People that Dr. Hassel's life changed in one way or another. After leaving Dr. Hassel's viewing last night. I looked up and saw there was a full moon. - something he would have loved. It brought this deep howling sob from me and I sat in the car for more than 1/2 hour sobbing my eyes out because of the unfairness of it all. - that I won't go into. Let's just say Dr. Hassel was 47 .... nuff said. Once the tears started I couldn't contain them or control them. I sobbed for the whole ride home and often wondered what people thought of me when they either passed me or turned towards me and stared .... I just couldn't help it. The bottom line..... I still have my husband today because God has blessed me beyond measure. Jennifer's family is less one member today, tomorrow and forever.... and it's not because God hasn't chosen to bless them. This is what disturbs me most.